The DH has been stuck in grumpy gear for ages. Everyone is
noticing it. He even hung up on a friend who was extreme venting on politics.
He has way too many friends from the other party who tend to be overbearing
about it. Hobbies have brought them together but I worry this year of political
crap may drive them apart. Well, he told the friend it was the phone but he
told me the truth, he just couldn’t take it anymore. He’s gotten that way with
most everyone. My brother finally took what my Mom always said, “never talk
religion or politics with family and anyone you want to keep as a friend” as a
good rule to follow. He too is from the other party and is a pastor so can be over bearing about everything.
Back to the DH, it used to be he’d be “nice” to everyone
even if they were annoying him THEN when he’d get home he’d turn into Captain
Grumpyman. Now though his attitude costume seems to be on all the time and
Covid is not helping. Ok, now you know about the grumpy thing but here’s why I
broke down and told him a HUGE secret.
We live in two houses. One is our home and the second is a
house that comes with his job. We spend most of our time there but I spend a
few nights at “home”. DH has to stay at the work house because he’s the
caretaker of the property and has to be on call almost all the time. It’s
stressful but it has allowed him to have something he always wanted, ducks
& chickens. Well, at least the ones some predator hasn’t grabbed from the
coop. He’s lost 7 so far which adds more stress. His outside camera has filmed
us, the cat, dog, birds, and a family of 5 raccoons. I was surprised to find
that they will kill birds.
Ok, I know I’ve gotten WAY off topic but I just wanted to
explain just how stress makes the DH Captain Grumpyman. The secret came out
when we were at our home. He came over to help me cut grass. We were sitting at
the kitchen table eating lunch and he was explaining that he thinks we should
sell our home since it’s hard for him to work at 3 houses. I was near tears
because I don’t want to live full time at his work. He was saying things I
couldn’t quite handle and out it came.............I told him about the suicide
I planned a few years ago. I was never going to tell him since it was his
attitude that put helped put me in the dark place. He was shocked, so much so
that he’s not wearing his Captain Grumpyman attitude quite as much. At least something good came out of it.
Life has interrupted and my shoulder is hurting too much to
continue. I pulled it last Tuesday and it’s still hurting, especially when I’m
at the computer for long. So like always, take care and wear a mask for those
you love and even for those you hate.
